Why do we hold on? Ever fearful of what’s to come we trudge. Calves sore, feet salted from sweat. The ground hot like the beach thick like mud. Continuously traveling uphill.
A treadmill set at incline 10, pack on back, summer sun, forgot breakfast.
At some point we tell ourselves it’s worth it. Who’s worse, us to ourselves or others to us? I knew there were liars and thieves, away from me and in the distance, but never have I felt so comparable.
But it’s worth it.
Wondering what “it” is.
Lately I’ve been practically in-able to wake up. It’s as if no matter the dream it is better than the awake. My comatose reality plays tricks, however, creating strange awareness and frustrations.
I tried to start a book and I couldn’t focus.
I need to focus.
I need coffee, for life.